The salt lake fun!

Last saturday my roommates and some of our friends to a little journey down the the big SLC to watch USU vs. BYU in basketball... Sadly, our team played awful and barely lost by like five points! ugh. Anyway! I've posted some fun pictures! Enjoy!

 
(left to right) Troy, Keisha, me, and Shannon. We were at the gateway after the game.
 
Oh ya know.. just our feet at temple square.
 
(left to right) Shannon, Holly, Me, and Heidi.. it was a crowded ride down!
 
And if you haven't seen the movie Elf, you won't get this. But it was funny.. trust me. We were in Dicks at the Gateway.

Parfait Party.. kind of.

here we have Brian (Steg) singing his heart out :)




Robbie On drums, Frew on base, Steg on guitar, and Kyle singing.

Last night me and Heidi decided to have a Parfait Party. So we went to the grocery store and bought fruit, yogurt, granola, pudding, and oreo's. It was very delicious. Anyway, so the party was slightly lame at first but then my friend Ryan brought his Rockband over and then it really got going! Basically Heidi and two of her friends played this card game called Nertz for three hours while the rest of us took turns playing rockband. Below there is a video of Ryan on the drums, Robbie is singing, Steg is on the base, and chad is sitting on the floor playing the guitar. And the two other guys on the far couch were just some of Jacen's friends who came. I Can't remember their names for the life of me. (oh and please excuse my annoying giggle in this video! ugh :S)



Oh, and yes.. You did see Ryan turn around and hit me with his drumsticks. He continued to do it and found it quite hilarious throughout the evening lol. Anyway, the people playing cards were Heidi, Nate the Great, Curtis, and Kyle.

I eventually got to play rockband too even.. ok ok so they had to force me to play rockband. Ryan literally captured me in the guitar strap and threatened to strangle me with it if it didn't play. Yikes. I know! Anyway, I played and ended up loving it! It was so much fun. This last video is just of Robbie hanging out on the couch while Ryan is jamming out on the drums during a solo and the card game continues. Oh, and at the end of this video you will see Ryan saying something, he's telling me he's mad at me for videoing him while he was playing lol.



All in all... fun night :)

I have the Greatest Roomies... Ever.

McKell (Top Right) Heidi (Center) Keisha (Bottom Right)

So I just would like to make it clear that I have the best roommates ever. Today... well lets just say that today was an awful day. I'm not going to go into details.. but it was just terrible! But anyway, so i come home after a way long day of school and I was really really depressed and my two roommates Keisha and Heidi (Mckell was at the library) literally had to drag me out of the house. All I wanted to do was sit in my room and listen to sad music. But would they let me? No. They kidnapped me and threw me in the car and wouldn't tell me where we were going. So, we're just driving along and all of a sudden we pull up at Cold Stone. :D That's all I have to say :D They took me inside, bought me ice cream, and we talked girl talk. They know just how to cheer a girl up! They are wonderful. After that they made me go watch the office with them which made my day lots better also. I am so blessed :D


Oh and just another funny thing I might mention that happened today (which i didn't find funny at the time because I was so depressed but now I find it hilarious.) Anyway, I guess today was national coming out day? Who knew. Anyway, so I get to school and there is a stage set up outside with every color of the rainbow balloons and just blaring music with a sign that said "National Coming Out Day!" with a little man running out of a closet. So I just kinda laughed and went to class.. but when I came out.. That was the kicker. Now before I go on, Lets get this straight. I have no problem with Gay people. They are no less or different than any other human being. I mean, I don't agree with their lifestyle but i don't agree with smoking either.. so anyway. You get my point. Anyhow! When I came out of class there were people now on this stage taking turns crying and telling their coming out stories... wow. It was such an interesting program to witness. It did make me smile though... So there was another plus side of my day :) Geez Ames, what kind of school did you send me too ;) haha, jk.

WARNING: VERY LONG AND IT'S A "YA HAD TO BE THERE" KIND OF NIGHT FOR IT TO BE REALLY FUNNY.
Okay, so funny stories. It all started when I had to rent this old movie called Awakenings. It has Robin Williams and Robert De Niro in it and the movie itself isn't too bad. But me and my new found friend Robbie needed to watch it for our psych class. So tonight Robbie was going to come over and watch it with me. All of my roommates had gone out to do other things so I was just chillin at home waiting for Robbie to get here. Anyway, someone knocks and expecting Robbie, I go answer and it's not Robbie. It's this new kid from upstairs. He's a pretty nice guy except it's kind of funny because in the past i don't know like three days he has managed to get all three of my roommates phone numbers! And, he sounds like he's from Nephi. I mean, he's a real good "was-er" and he goes "huntin" and he drinks eight "dews" a day. Anyway, you get the point. So I answer the door and he's just like "hey" I'm like.. "hi" so it was kind of awkward but somehow he ended up staying. So a few minutes later Robbie gets here and we start the movie. Brandon is sitting on the love seat and me and Rob are sitting on opposite ends of the couch when Rob says, "Listen Lady, the lights bothering me, go turn it off." After hitting him and doing as I'm told I threaten him with a smack down if he trys to put a move on me lol. Following that comment, Brandon somehow ended up sitting right between me and Robbie.. just because he thought it'd be funny? Um. Okay. Anyway, Following that comes in my roommate and this guy named Dusty and they sit down to watch the movie too now taking up the love seat. Thank you Heidi.. leave me stuck here with Brandon. I had no where to escape. Oh well I thought. I'll just fold my arms and legs and curl up in a little ball. And then comes Robbie's roommate and friend, Ryan and Chad. So there is now seven of us crammed into out little living room watching this movie, which originally started with the plan of just me and Robbie doing our homework. Anyway, continuing on with the crazy night. So at this point, Brandon had gone back upstairs to his apartment two times to get a Mt. Dew. Wow. But, I'm still stuck there with him sitting next to me. After his return from his second Dew run, he sits down and leans over to me and whispers, "so are ya havin' fun?" And i was like "yeah!" because I really was. I mean, we had a lot of people over so it was pretty fun and everyone was talking cracking jokes. So I mean, it wasn't too weird he asked me that.. but the next thing he asked... "So.. are ya single?" I was like.. "uh... ya?" And he got this big dumb grin on his face and was like "Cool." I was just said... "yeah it's for sure the best way to be!" It was probably the most awkward moment of my entire life. Like, and his whispers.. aren't very quiet. It was so weird! The very funniest part though is that he left again for another Mt. Dew and by this time Two more friends of rob's show up that I don't know and One guy ends up on the couch and I moved to a chair by myself all in the time that he's gone! So that made it better. Anyway, Somehow Brandon and this other kid end up talking about Hunting or something and He ends up bringing down this huge homemade antler lamp that he keeps in his apartment.. So that's the picture. You can't see him in the picture but.. yeah anyway. Pretty nuts. Oh wait, I forgot the best part... at the end of the night we were all exchanging numbers with everyone else and he asked for mine.. and then he said... "wait what's your name?" WHAT! HAHAHA! I LAUGHED SO HARD! lol, okay, hit on me and THEN get my name. Good job dude! wow. Oh, and also, after everyone left I went and looked in the mirror and realized how awful I really looked! Me and Heidi had gone running before this and I didn't think anything of how i looked cuz it was just supposed to be Robbie. Awe man, what a night!

The Escape from an Unseen Captor..

Reaching, stretching, screaming, and breaking... All the noise coming from that hole was finally fading away as I neared the peak. My fingers burrowed into the dirt at the top and using every ounce of strength I could gather, I wrenched my body upward. Ignoring the tearing of my jeans and the pain shooting through my arms, I continued on my journey to freedom. I could taste the clean air and almost feel the sun on my face. As I crawled out of the darkness of my own hell, I slid my muddy body through the shadows of the tall tree's surrounding me. I was so close to the warmth... to the light. I could almost taste it. I stretched my arm forward and my fingertips were the first to absorb the heavenly sunlight. The sun's warmth radiated throughout my body. I could see again, I could feel the beat of my heart, and the blood pulsing through my veins. I was alive. Until this moment I had been so sure that I would die in that hole... never being able to find the strength to climb out. Yet, here I am. The awful memories flashed through my mind and I scurried as far from the hole as quickly as my wounded body would allow me.
Once I was completely consumed by the sun, I struggled to my feet while trying to scrap off the excess mud from my clothes. In the distance I could see swollen white clouds, and I only hoped that they would bring rain. I needed now, more than ever, to be washed clean from all of this. I glanced down at my body and thought to myself that, that thought was more literally true than I had initially intended. The silence of the sunny day was ringing in my ears... it was strange, the silence. It had been so long since I had been left alone in my head with my own thoughts. There were no other voices, no screams or crying, no one else telling me I couldn't do it... strange. With that, I started limping toward home, hoping to find them there still. My stretched soul let out a silent prayer that they hadn't given up on me. I needed them now more than ever.
I looked at the ground as I trudged along... catching glimpses of my filthy feet every so often. Over time i noticed the mud beginning to dry and crack on my skin. And eventually it began to flake off. And with watching that... I couldn't help but smile and become overwhelmed with gratitude for that gracious sunlight. It was as if it was chipping away all of my impurities that i had gathered during my time in the darkness.
It was only when the I couldn't feel the sun baking through my clothes anymore that I finally turned my face upward. Those white clouds from before now hovered overhead, replacing my sunlight, and threatening to soak me. I pleaded for their action. I stopped for a moment and waited... nothing. I looked around and was surprised at how far I'd come. I knew home was close, I only had a few more blocks. I picked up the pace, ignoring my limp, and pushing myself forward. I strained my eyes around each bend, waiting for the right one to appear. As I neared the final turn, I felt it. One small fleeting raindrop landed on my arm. I brought my arm to my face and watched as the small raindrop made it's way along my mud-baked arm. Right as it fell from my wrist, I felt another one.. and another. Soon there were too many to count. The clouds were unleashing their grace on me, and I laughed through my tears as I watched the dried mud moisten, and trickle off my skin and clothes. I closed my eyes and felt the raindrops seep into my skin, cleansing me from this painful past. With that, I rounded the last corner and home was finally within my reach. I was home, I was clean, and most importantly... I was alive.

best friends forever.

A hem. Here we have a lovely picture of me and my newly found bff here in Logan, Utah. Please ignore the greasy foreheads on account of my apartment has no AC and so it is blazing hot. We have fun though with our Tortellini and eight minute ab video... from which we are still feelin' the burn baby. Pretty much other than hiking the disturbingly steep hill up to campus, slaving away in classes, and sweating ourselves into dehydration, that is our life at the moment.
The end.

Apartment life :)

Here is my teeny tiny bedroom in my new apartment that I love!
These pictures are in order of how my room looks..

Here is my door..
and then..
My closet that is jam packed as well as my dresser which is also packed full!

My bed...

And last but not least, my desk!

And that is pretty much my whole room, it is tiny but it is mine and i do love it lots! So far not much has happened. I've only met one roommate and two of her friends but they are all really nice. Church was so much fun today too! Everyone is so excited to be there and when we got home me and my roommate made dinner together, said a little prayer and ate. It was fantastic! So.. so far I love it :) That's all for now really.

Slightly funny.

Okay, so this is very random but I laughed my butt off. So, one of my guy friends just bought a pair of flip flops a while ago and I just thought they were average black flip flops, ya? Wrong. Oh no, these are no ordinary flip flops! We were sitting in his car and he picked up this small black tool. And he said, "Oh here's the thing that goes to my shoes." And I looked down and noticed his shoes and I was like.. ".. wait, what?!?" And so he took his shoe off and turned it on it's side and proceeded to use the tool to unscrew what looked like a miniature cap to a water bottle. I asked him what the purpose of having that cap on his shoe was and instead of telling me he reached back into the tag from them that he still had in his car and handed it to me. On the tag there was a picture of someone dumping soda from the inside of the flip flop base into a cup!!!! It's like a freakin' water bottle in your flip flop!!! I was laughing so hard, I wish I could find a picture to show you! I wanted to send it into Jay Leno. It was so funny. I mean, I could just see someone filling up their flip flop before heading out for the day in case they get thirsty! I laughed even harder when my friend told me how much those ridiculous shoes cost him! What is the world coming to?!

Sunsets of a Broken Empire.

Sunsets and Sunrises..
One is the end of a seemingly undistinguished day ..
the other,
the start of one.

From one-
comes light.
Peaking over mountain tops..
finding it's way through valleys.
Cascading into windows
and through cracks in
white picket fences.

It brings into plain view,
everything that was ever wrong.
The brightness reveals
broken branches,
and wilted flowers.

The sunshine exposes bad hair days,
ugly sweaters, and ragged shoes..
the sunshine exposes truths
that every human, wishes to mask.

Sunsets are our masks,
bringing with them the comfort of darkness.
It burrows into every crevice,
every broken branch,
and wilted flower.

Darkness blankets the unrefined surface,
revitalizing the broken,
readying them to face yet another
undistinguished day.

super depressing

The Silent Breaking

Like a typhoon of them both,
they were mingled.
Him as her,
and her as him.

Interlaced fingers, soft hands
followed by soft kisses--
one without the other...
was like a beach without any sand.

Though the blazing typhoon has calmed
the darkened clouds remain...
and the weeping wind does blow.

It weaves through his hair-
caresses his face,
and in it's departure...
claws to hang on for just one more moment.

Whisking its way through the world,
in silence,
the mute noise has hidden cries.
The cries of silent pain overtaking the surface.

It screams the breaking of a love-
in nothing more than a whisper.
It cries the hunger of a lonely soul,
yearning for nothing more than to hear his voice.

And, it pleads for a softened heart...
while whistling it's weeping melody through the leaves.
And while the tune plays,

it prays ... pleading for the end of this silent breaking.

Spoon me.

So... I am in salt lake at the bby camp training to be a counselor for next week. Well, after the training for the day me and some of the chica's went out for a nice little night on the town. Following the glam pictures, victoria's secret exploration, watching a wreck, and getting asked for spare change, we went to Spoon Me. Probably the best frozen yogurt I have ever ever eaten. For real, just look at the picture.... Mmm mmm mmm!

Seriously,

just spoon me.

Tag your it!

I have been tagged! Yay! Finally! People who I tag be sure you copy, paste, and continue the tagging!

Joys:
1. My family and friends
2. The gospel
3. Taking Pictures

Fears:
1. Being Alone
2. Getting kidnapped!
3. Being held down and tickled!

Goals:
1. Help others realize their worth
2. Be a better Latter Day Saint
3. Make it to the temple

Current Obsessions:
1. School, school, school.
2. Twilight series.. always!
3. Playing the piano

Random Surprising Facts About Me:
1. I have never had a bloody nose.. ever.
2. I always have to double check everything! (I don't trust myself haha)
3. I love dancing choreographed hip hop kind of stuff-

I Tag:
Kaylie
Erin...
and that's about the only other friends I have on here besides people who
have already been tagged :) haha.

The Asian

So once upon a day in my desperate attempt to be on time for my public speaking class, I entered the classroom surprised to see my seat, the one I so protectively sat in on the first day of class for the mere reason that it was in complete isolation, was taken. So, instead of proving myself a retard by fumbling all over the place to try to sqeeze my way through the disarray of the classroom chairs, I walked quickly and took the seat next to my original seat. As I settled in and began to relax and listen to the professor, I look over and something pink catches my eye. A bandaid. Not only was this a pink bandaid, it had a barbie face on it. Not only was it a pink bandaid with a barbie face on it, it was found on the hand of the 21 year old male who I was sitting next to. Yes, that barbie loving 21 year old took my seat. Ugh. It was a sign that this was not going to go well. After a few moments of brewing over my stolen seat, I looked over at him and commented on his appealing bandaid. "I like your bandaid" I said, he replied with a very nervous smile and defended himself with some classic excuse. Throughout the class period I didn't say much else to him and I left without a thought. The following few days I would arrive to my class finding him in the same spot, my spot, and surprisingly enough I came to enjoy his company. Also, I came to find out that this kid had returned from a mission just two and a half weeks before from a comment my teacher made about it in class. Wow. He started walking me to class after a few days and he didn't come off as a stocker or anything, SO I embraced the gesture... until one day. It was a wednesday and we were on our usual route to my classroom when from behind we hear "hey uh.. guys?" As I turned I saw her. The asian. (I don't even know her name and honestly have no desire to, so therefore she will be refered to as "The asian" without any racism intended.) So the asian begins to walk with us, and while wiggling her skinny little body inbetween me and my almost friend, she begins to tell her sob story of how her testimony is faltering and she could really use some help from someone. Suddenly, I was invisible. Jenny? Jenny who? This guy was lunged back into missionary mode and starts talking a million miles an hour, completely ignoring my exsistance in the process. And on her devilish way of taking my newly found friend away from me, she gives me a smirk. At that moment I remembered, that day in class when the teacher made a comment about this guy being a newly returned missionary....ARE YOU JOKING! Seriously?!?! The asian had paid zero attention to him a week ago?!? But now that she knows he's a returned missionary she wants him? What! Does he have a sign on his back that says, Single and Disease Free! (such as the illustration in the top left) We're in Utah for goodness sakes! She could catch some random guy in the hall and use her little line on him, or hey! Here's an idea, if she really is having a hard time, maybe her bishop? huh? huh?!? HUH?!?!? Come on man! I never make friends. So there.. all alone, i watch as they walk off together, leaving me behind. Shocked, Alone, and mostly annoyed. Flip, all I wanted was a friend! One! ugh.

The next class period the seat that I so loved was given back to me as this guy moved to sit by his new female interest. Sigh... The Asian takes the Victory. Congratulations.

Dear Devil,

Dear Devil,
I have lately been contemplating the purpose of your existence, your strong will to ruin the world, and make my life a living hell. I do realize that you are evil and enjoy this sort of thing. I mean hell is your home away from home and that misery loves company. I'm sure you're very eagerly enjoying your fiery couch while your little helpers are out corrupting the good people of the world. You've certainly trained them well. However, I was hoping to ask you a favor, nothing big. Just simply going to hell without dragging the world down with you? I mean honestly,what kind of pleasure do you get from watching a teenage girl starve herself, or a guy cheat on his wife? There is no point in making those things look appealing is there? I mean it's like.... here's a needle, let me go fill it up with some trashy substance and shoot it into my arm! ... Really? Is that cool at all? Nah. You seem to be a fairly unreasonable guy so there is really no point to this letter. As do I realize that there is not a lot I could to do make you believe you owe me, a sufferer in result of your thoroughly affective temptations, anything. I suppose I could tell you how in the end the wrath of God will come to get ya, but I figure you've pretty much already faced that. You've got nothing else to lose, your completely alone. Wow, that blows for you. Well if I had a chance before I sure don't anymore.. Anyway, just thought I'd give it a go.
Sincerely
Never yours,

Jenny Fish

Pre-Meditated Sucide!

This one's for the ladies. Don't you hate that time of the month when the monster from within emerges from the depth of your soul and tries to ruin your life? I do. Your days are filled with everyone in the whole world being out to get you, snot filled kleenex's, and that irritating attitude that no matter how happy people try to make you.. it just won't go away!! Well, let me tell you... this week had definitely been one of those weeks. Let me just start off by venting about the pointlessness of PMS. Why do we have to have all of these raging hormones surge through our bodies to the max once a month?!?! Why can't we just act normal? Guys never have to act crazy and irrational once a month, well no more than they usually are at least. No jokes are made at their expense while they are bedridden with a heating pad. Guys have it unfairly easy. All they are expected to do is stand there and mumble about sports, girls, and who's fart was louder. Idiots. If only men knew what it was like, they wouldn't be so judgmental. How about we stick them full of blood and let them bleed it out while their insides are contracting them to the point of throwing up! Let's see how happy they are! Grrr.
This past week I'm fairly sure that I have had more teary eyes,"everyone hates me" moments, and "my life is over" thoughts than I ever had before! Earlier today, I found out I didn't pass my cleaning check for my apartment. And of course me being the rational person I am at this particular time, was furious. My initial thought, "They just hate me because I didn't wave back to her when she walked passed me the other day so she failed me! Jerk." Two days ago, I got a bad grade while a neighboring student got an A and again I thought, "Oh my gosh! Did you just see that! I Swear they just tilted that paper in my direction! They're just rubbing it in! Grr." I could literally feel my temperature rising. This week has been full of ups and downs, sideways, backwards, squareways, sadways, grumpyways, frustratedways. All of the ways you could ever make up in your imagination... I have been there. I was tempted multiple times to find the tallest place a jump off of it just to end my misery! This week I was not having Pre menstrual syndrome, I have had a terrible case of Pre-meditated suicide! ah!

Perfect hair.

So something stupid has been bothering me a lot lately. Hair. I've recently realized that hair is a pointless accessory to the body. Don't get me wrong I would never want to shave my head or anything, but I find that some people make such a big deal about some change. That has just been so weird to me because to me it's just hair. I mean, it's gonna grow back, it'll go back to it's natural color... it's gonna be fine if you have a bad haircut that you don't like. Hair is not proclaiming your status of life, it's not telling the world what kind of person you are, it's simply sitting on your head because for some strange reason we were made with it there. (Which if you think about it, is kind of strange.) I guess I used to be the same way, I used to want my hair to look perfect and I wanted to look perfect but it doesn't really bother me anymore. I mean seriously, personal hygiene is of course vital, but stressing because your hairs a different color or length? I've suddenly come to the awesome realization that hair doesn't make the person. That looks really don't matter THAT much. Because if someone is going to love you, they're going to love you for the person you are. Not for what color your hair is. As i said before, personal hygiene is vital and so is making yourself look decent, but don't stress if your not perfect. I mean come on. In high school that's all I worried about, was looking perfect. But that's just it, we aren't in high school anymore. It's just hair! I don't care if it's board straight, curly, short, long, brown, pink, or blue- i'm still going to love the people who are important to me and I expect the same from them. Hair has become yet one more accessory to the fake facade that so many people put on so the world doesn't see them. The real them. Well what's wrong with them that they want to hide? Show the world that your proud of who you are and your not afraid to be you. It's about time someone does.